What I don't prefer about restrooms

I don't prefer restrooms with this kind of urinal stalls , with no partitions between. I guess contractors are not using partitions to save money. Frankly, my eyes tend to waver when standing at the urinal. And Oh Lord! I both like and hate what I see.

1. I hate the fact that I am perverted enough to steal glances
2. I am distracted if I like what I see and lose track of what I am doing.
3. I tend to compare. Yeah! I know I am not insecure, but then men just can't help it, can they ?


I generally prefer toiltes like this (with partitions in between urinals) coz
1. One's eyes do not waver
2. Ideally, one must respect other people's need for privacy
3. One does not need to position his hands to ensure privacy, when someone is staring.

What do you people think ?

My Kinda Women !!!

I have a firm belief that a man is incomplete without a woman in his life.
We may say, that we are stronger and wilder and more practical towards life.
But, if there isnt a woman, we are uninteresting specimens.
Please don;t get me wrong, I am not undermining the importance of a man here. I am simply highlighting the importance of a woman. I have been loved by the women in my family.
I am totally secure when it comes to dealing with women. I cherish feminism.
In girls, I seek friends and soulmates. I seek a sense of adventure, a liking for the unkown, a smart attitude, a serene smile and a stylish coqquetish demeanor.
My kinda girl has a balanced head and heart. She is creative and avoids being manipulative. She is there to comment on my achievements and failures. She is there to encourage me to be a better human being. She wants me to provide and care and protect. I relish hugging someone and protecting her from the wind. I cherish caressing her cheek and making her smile. I would love to watch a girl mature into a woman, her thought, deeds, emotions and expressions changing with age. I'd love to hold hands with her and go on long walks in the wilderness. Not a word spoken, the magic of the moment not broken ...

So, why do you like / yearn for girls ???

PS: I am hard to please, but once you win me over, you might as well walk over my face and I won't utter a sigh.

cheers
aaron

My Kinda Men !

Why should a man yearn for a man ? Afterall it is so abnormal.
I have dwelved on this question for a couple of years. All those years spent in guilt and remorse at my being 'abnormal'.

For me, it was the lack of love from a man in the family. In those growing up years, I could never connect with my papa or my brother. As far as I can recollect, I have never been hugged by my father (Ok. only once when he was happy, but then it had nothing to do with me. It was the occasion. Besides ?I was already grown up then.)

Papa has never patted me on my back. He always been the provider, but he has never shown the slightest inclination to be a dad. My brother had his own world and friends. I was like a weed. I guess my yearning for men was written in those formative years in my life. I just wanted security. A sturdy arm to comfort me, a strong neck, where I could hide my face and wash away my tears.

Puhleease, I am not complaining or anything. I am ok with no affection from men in my family. I guess, this yearning grew throughout my childhood and took a weird turn in my teeens. I fantacised someone caring for me and being there and loving me like no one ever had. These are the roots of my gay side. And this is the reason that till date, I have not indulged in casual bodily pleasures. I guess I need care.

Hence, my preference to strong, masculine men, who could hold you and hide you from your own demons ...

So, what are the psychological factors that made you gay / bi ?

And the Score is . . .

I am a virgin, or someone who has never been physical with anyone else.
I have never been kissed,I have never been held
I have almost been in four relationships, two with girls and two with guys.
I am very much in love with life and the concept of loving and being loved by someone.
I very much yearn the warmth of a body and soul in my life.
And, now that I reveal so much of myself, I maintain my anonymity
NO.Not because I am scared or I care!
But, because I would prefer someone coming into my life without knowing all this!!!
For me, a relationship is an adventure, a journey, a part to be lived in person.

And so the score is 0 = ZERO

The beginning and the end. The Eternity and the duality. A full circle . . .

Who am I ?

I have been struggling with this question for many years ?
What is it that goes on in the mind of a person who is confused about his sexual orientation ?
Is he successful in establishing an identity ? Does he have an identity ?
How does he deal with conflicting emotions?
Can he enter into a normal relationship with people from either sexes?
What is the source of his predicament?
What is his journey?

This blog is my story, with the hope that we can "connect". It is dedicated to all people who adhere to sexual orientations not considered as 'normal'
But then isn't 'normal' subjective?
This place will talk about the spiritual, critical and fun side on being bi-curious. Life and our take at it.
I love both women and men. And i am not ashamed. Should I be ? And they say, isn't being bi-curious a step towards being open minded?

After all why ignore half the population on the earth, when beauty, brains and beginnings are divided among the sexes? Some love and care never hurts !!!

Cheerio

Aaron